fuck this racist, homophobic noise!
...at my sister's party last friday we spoke of how we're moving to manor, pronounced "may-nor" and got into a fairly funny discussion about the way texans pronounce things.see, they have a street here in austin titled "guadalupe" but they pronounce it "guadaloop" and laugh at you if you try to say it with a mexican accent on the e at the end. there's another street similarly mispronounced. so when we said, sure, but you know texas was part of mexico until we, ummmm, STOLE IT, some cut-up said, yeah, but we won so they have to say it the way WE want them to now.and that my friends just about sums it up.trust me, i love the weather, we're making some decent friends finally (very few, but some) and i feel quite happy to buy a house and pronounce the damn town maynor. but some of the racist and close-minded hits have come a little too close to home and it perturbs me.as a white girl with a german jewish heritage (oh, another joke at the party, somebody said to me "you don't meet many of your types, and my sister and i said at the exact same time "that's because we killed all of us" or something to that effect. we cracked up ... the other few people kind of got that shocked and sorta glazed look on their faces) i don't have a lot to complain about with regard to racism against me. doesn't really happen. can't.but that doesn't mean i can't hate it when i see it and want to fucking spit. acid. in faces.you know i know a lot of people of color and a smattering of native americans and they do not want to fucking live in the ghetto or reservation or whatever. they don't deserve pity and they don't deserve white fucking people telling them that they should be happy making minimum wage working at a bk or what have you. a smattering turn to drug selling and use and ghettos become born. they become dangerous because if you can't protect yourself you're fucked. and then some whites end up there due to bad decisions (same as the blacks but generally more stupid since they usually have more fucking choice about these things) they start to get their racism really ingrained in them.and they think they can say, "well i live here and see this all the time so i can say shit about such-and-such a race."well fuck you. no you can't. you get stolen from your country and turned into slaves. you get segregated against and spit on and hung from a tree because of the color of your skin. then try to find jobs when all the schools in your area don't have the funding because they don't have the money the better off generally white districts have (because you know, segregation meant you had to live on either this or that side of the track). then see if you don't say fuck this and start shooting up drugs that make you feel like maybe you can cope with it. and you find out you can make more money dealing than you can doing fucking bk.this explains why we decided against new orleans. i want a multi-cultural group of friends. i want to feel like that shit doesn't matter when we're all hanging out. and there it's very segregated and here it's somewhat. perhaps i should freaking just move back to sf. we probably will when we can afford it.because this racist, homophobic country has got me down and at least there i can pretend it's not like that.