Posterous theme by Cory Watilo

Notes on a book...

"...'Dear Celebrity,' these letters begin.

Dear Charitable Organizations,
If you're reading this, please know that I no longer even open your
envelopes before pitching them.
Sincerely,
Anonymous celebrity"

(Exerpt from Ted Koppel's book "Off Camera: Private Thoughts Made
Public" ©2000)

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Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®

Sore and ... (I love PJ Harvey)

I just posted a widget from Amazon just in case anybody who ever comes across this feels like making a disabled woman who went from near death at 110 pounds (I'm 5'8" - I have not weighed that little since high school) to not fitting in my clothes that I've had for over fifteen years.

So my wish lists are the thing that make me have hope that gifts shower down on me in a way that gets me to making more prints.

Heck, I'll trade gifts for photos of mine printed professionally in exchange. Now that should give me incentive to shoot more nature and nudes. Right?

I think I know who I want to vote for

Here are just a couple links to things that might help detonate the idea that Obama is less experienced than Hillary or Edwards:

Via my friend "fightingwords" on LJ here are two great takes on why this is bull:

What Makes Obama Run?

Lawyer, teacher, philanthropist, and author Barack Obama doesn't need another career. But he's entering politics to get back to his true passion--community organization.

By Hank De Zutter
December 8, 1995

which I read ages ago and have meant to transfer to here this whole time from her post on January 8, 2008 at 4:32 p.m. - Note the date of the article. 1995.

I have more that I think about all of this that I will save for my site, AF, but I thought I should check in here and let the world know that for every person who thinks Hillary Clinton has more experience, they should maybe read a little more.

Of course I could have it all wrong. But I know where my votes intend to end up.

Where to start?

Penny Arcade Expo was AMAZING. Best Con out of the three I've been to this year by far. The most well organized, the best "Enforcers," most of the best panels that were thought provoking (even if some of them pissed me off beyond belief).

Wish I had the nerve to try Rock Band - we ended up buying it for the PS3 and LOVE IT.

I am going to write some of what will eventually be going up on my Artistic Fetishes site here until I can get that really up and running.

I have articles backlogged and I need to start getting them out and into the world.

The old white men running the gaming industry with them wanting to pry money out of the pockets of 12-year-olds while not realizing or caring they're putting the onus on the parents.

And why was there a panel on "Women in Gaming" but not "Blacks in Gaming?" as one woman on that panel asked? There needs to be more diversity. And so I have hundreds of photos to sift through, about four hours of movie footage to break into montages and short pieces, and interviews that I'll be working on in the near future.

For now, let me leave you with this excellent tribute to the genius of xkcd.

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Wil Wheaton shares the geek love of xkcd with the rest of us silly gamer types.

This rant needed to be ranted:

I just wanted to write that I'm very glad that people think of me enough to lend me the books they lend me, but I have to let you know that I have no interest in them.

To me it is the same as reading a book on Creationism written by a "Creationist Expert" and while there's nothing wrong with it, I just have no interest.

Telling me that the car accident was my desire (or Kathy's or Delia's) or that my Fibromyalgia is all in my head is just insulting to me and I believe better of people (or want to) than that.

If you're a person who truly believes that when my roommate and new friend died because one of them fell asleep for a split second that it was our will/desire to have what happened happen (and I'm not saying you do, but I've had people say this to me in the past fifteen years) it makes me just as ill now as it did then.

My friends and family have my love and my true and honest desire for them to be happy. But all of you (!) please stop pressing your beliefs on me. Your systems do not work for me and I do not believe in them. I am glad that some of you have found love and somebody to share your interests with. I am also glad that some of you feel healthy and at peace. But what works for you will most likely not work for me.

Please understand that I mean no disrespect. However I feel quite disrespected by people ignoring the gentle hints and things I've said enough to lend me a book that makes me so angry and nauseous I can't fall asleep. It actually caused a full fledged panic attack because of how angry it makes me that anybody would ever say that Delia and Kathy (and my other friends who have died due to random chance) wanted to do so. They didn't. They were young and full of life and full of love and they damn well deserved a better end and later end than they got.

So my husband is falling asleep beside me while we both wait for the two Ativan to make their way through my system enough for me to stop fixating on the book that is downstairs, sitting on the counter. Not wanted. Not asked for. In fact, asked to please let me ignore it with it's pseudo-science and lack of actual physics knowledge.

Nobody deserves to be gang raped as a young child. Nobody deserves to be molested and then raped as a child. Nobody deserves to fall asleep in a car only to either be one of the two dead or the last survivor having the scent of dirt and blood in their nostrils fifteen years later because of a book on a table. Just leave it be. Leave me be. And I will do my damnedest to leave you and your (to me) psychotic wish dreams of a world with meaning and faith alone. Because in my eyes you're just delusional and I'm alone and awake with this knowledge. It doesn't make me happier. But it makes me at least feel in touch with reality.

Testing out the phone blogging system

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This is very expensive food from a very expensive but worth it restaurant in San Diego. It's called something that begins with an "S" and is vegetarian that also has vegan and raw options. Yummy!

It's blurry here, but it was a very delicious and weird mix that had live flowers as edibles.

Their Lavender French Fries were truly amazing. Especially with the white dip. Yum! Highly recommended...especially as a romantic date.

Locked out and now I'm not...

I was locked out of the account for some weird reason for the past four months, but now I'm not and I caved in and got a gmail account so will be able to start posting more frequently.

Which is good. I've been reading a lot of consumerist.com lately and I really love the work they're doing. Between my disability case still being on hold (this has been going on since mid-October 2004) and my not being able to really do much modeling or photography due to the pain levels escalating, I'm just going to focus on writing more.

Considering all the bad that has happened health-wise, having things like this to look forward to give me nice feelings.

From my Organic Consumer Monthly...

ALERT OF THE WEEK:
DEMAND A NEW "TRUTH-IN-LABELING" STANDARD FOR VITAMINS/SUPPLEMENTS
Your favorite vitamin and supplement brand may label itself as "food-based" or "natural", but the overwhelming majority of today's supplements are actually laced with synthetic chemicals, genetically engineered ingredients, or even nanoparticles. The FDA, in accordance with the wishes of the large pharmaceutical companies who supply the feedstocks for 90% of all dietary supplements, allows vitamin companies to label their products as "natural," "food-based," or even "organic," even if these supplements are composed of 90% synthetic ingredients, including genetically modified organisms. The Organic Consumers Association (OCA), along with the Naturally Occuring Standards Group, is launching a new "truth in labeling" campaign that will enable consumers to distinguish between those vitamins and supplements that are truly natural or organic, and those that simply claim to be. You can read more about the Naturally Occurring StandardIn a nutshell, the new Naturally Occurring Standard (NOS) will allow consumers to know whether a vitamin/supplement product:

* Contains synthetic ingredients.
* Contains genetically engineered ingredients.
* Only contains ingredients found in nature.
* Only contains ingredients that are sustainably harvested and fairly-traded.
* Is organic.

In order to make clear to the $20+ billion supplements industry that consumers want truth-in-labeling for vitamins & supplements, please sign our petition here (http://www.organicconsumers.org/nutricon/nutripetition.cfm). And stay tuned to the Nutri-Con section of the OCA website for further developments.
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HOW "NATURAL" OR "ORGANIC" ARE YOUR VITAMINS & SUPPLEMENTS?
OCA is building an expansive database of companies that meet strict NOS standards for being 100% naturally occurring and organic. To find out if your favorite vitamin/supplement is truly natural, please submit that company's name when you sign the Nutri-Con petition (see above). We will be posting an online database over the next two months, listing how the various companies rank.
Learn more: http://www.organicconsumers.org/nutricon/nutripetition.cfm

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I'm tired and in a lot of pain. I believe that, yes, if you're claiming your stuff is organic or food based it should actually have the truth and whole truth and not just good marketing backing it up. So this is a belated post since I haven't felt much like sharing here. I'm too ill and unbalanced too worry about the fact I've heard what people really think of women who shave their heads (I'm bald again, thank you very much) ever since the Brittney Spears debacle. Screw her. Some of us do it because we photograph GREAT with a shaved head (either side of the camera). Not because we're drugged out of our minds or what have you...