All Mixed Up Inside
New roommate/caregiver is Raul. He's a 28-year-old full blooded SoCal Mexican who currently looks more Indian than is understandable. Apparently even an Indian friend of his says he's definitely capable of pulling a Punjabi girl should he so desire.
It feels weird to have everything moving ahead so dang quickly. He's a man on a mission and I hope that nothing messes up the alliance he and I hope to build together.
My ex is really messing me about and I am severely stressed by his lack of communication and his obvious advantage taking that only a lawyer or advocate could protect me from.
And, yes, several friends did say I should get a lawyer but with no money and what with the three day turn-around signing time and the fact he had my rent and food and medication to hold over me and filing in TX against our original CA tentative agreement…well, it all adds up to I was backed into a corner and had no choice. None.
It would have been nice if an advocate on a white charger had ridden up to protect me. But none did. So my ex took me to the cleaners and continues to do so. Half his income? Ha! Medical expenses? Not a cent! The car he wanted and picked out? Now I'm paying for it and the insurance. Never mind I don't have the money to pay my medical expenses. Nope. He just keeps pushing me harder and harder.
This self-righteous schmuck who makes over six figures a year is giving me less than a third and, let me reiterate, that's with him not paying a penny toward my medical expenses.
Gah!!!
Enough. I'm crying from pain anyway. The picture is from me playing with shadows, sunlight, and vectors on the back porch a few days ago.
Going to be growing herbs, small fruit trees, and potatoes, among other things. Raul is an experienced city gardener. I'm suicidal from the stress but Raul's plans are great. At least when they aren't frightening the heck out of me. He has a lot he wants to do. We're even discussing what sort of space and where we will want to have it when we move out. Long range plans coupled with good care helps. As do my sweetlings.

