Posterous theme by Cory Watilo

The Trick Of Seeing Yourself As Others Do (sometimes).

It may not seem like such a big deal, but often we see ourselves as we believe others see us. Learning that does not equate with seeing ourselves the way others DO perceive us can be a real stepping stone to personal growth.

The way I'm handling the bad news isn't the best. Plus I'm sick again. Trying to recognize the warning signals but it's not easy for me. Just know running around to various doctors and such is very wearing.

Shawn finally agreed to send money to cover the car registration, but I'm certain he's going to take money out of the alimony settlement. But at least it can get road ready again. Trade it in for a Vespa? Or the downpayment on my very own livable RV? Don't want the invested money to go to waste.

The RV has become my weird dream. And I don't want to give up on it quite yet. But I'm exhausted and I'm not even certain this app works anymore.

Here goes nothing...

MotherF+++ing OW!

Okay. So I hurt and I'm stressed and if a needle filled with death was offered right now I'd accept it and "move on" quite happily.

Don't pretend to understand why I'm sick of all this and censure me or even try to 5150 me because I've just come from an hour and a half with a pain psych and she didn't think it necessary or even prudent.

But yeah, my pain levels and stress levels and nausea are through the roof no matter how much of a good mood I try to strive for.