Posterous theme by Cory Watilo

Future And Present(s) - Pun Fun

I have almost definitely decided to not go for Stanford Pain Clinic's program. If I can't handle the past couple of weeks I don't know that I can do the strenuous work. The PT I met with said that it starts off with mile long walks and that's beyond my capabilities. I've been trying to do more as she requested & it's as bad as 2009. The only hope would be the hospital would be keeping an eye on all these problems.

  1. "OXO Good Grips Bottle Brush"
  2. "Thermos Nissan 26-Ounce Travel Companion Stainless-Steel Insulated Bottle"
  3. "BIC Soft Feel Retractable Ballpoint Pen, Medium Point, Black, 12-Count"
  4. "EcoSafe GKL032195-1 2-1/2-Gallon Compostable EcoBio Bags, 25-Count"
  5. "rooCASE Super Bubble Neoprene Sleeve Case Cover for Amazon Kindle Wireless Reading Device with 6" Display 3G + Wi-Fi (3rd Generation and Latest Generation) (Black / Pink)"
This was made possible by two gifts from friends. Caitlyn and Bridget both gave me presents of credit at Amazon and it meant I got the equivalent of 50% off thanks to them. I purchased two things for the house and two things for my care and one pretty cover to slip my Kindle into when going out. The thermos is for me to put ice water in to keep near me - though perhaps I should get an insulated pitcher for home.

I managed to walk the dogs but this time the pain was aggravated by the difficulties they offered me tonight. The pain is driving me nuts. Utterly. And having to try to care for the dogs, the apartment, doctors, medications, finances, and so forth is too much for my body to handle. Easy and quick as a normal person. If I could sweep the sickness away I would in a heartbeat.

Maybe I should find a paying roommate and use the money saved from their rent and utilities toward paying for a part-time assistant. But if that could be possible I would want to move into my own place and not have to deal with the probable drama and lies and so forth.

I'm tired of everything. Though the gifts helping me buy necessities and a gift for myself was a quick bright light of affection and care.

Suddenly I smell burning wood for a short while. There's a point my body can't go past. I'm wrecked.