One Side Cats & One Side Dogs
This pain causes cold sweat attacks that coincide badly with the sweat spells I've started having regularly. To mention the disabling pain as icing is incorrect. The pain is the base all else is built on.
I'm surrounded by my belovèd four babies. I've got music playing to help distract which is suitable proof I'm in a bad state. To have somebody to cradle me and even knowing it won't help the pain it at least will assist me mentally, even more than the cats and dogs do.
The idea of being loved and protected still makes passes through my thoughts and dreams. Yay for cats, dogs, music, and science fiction. And for my friends.
Pain really overwhelming in pulsation form. Yet I manage to breathe through the difficulty of doing so. My throat has felt restricted for days which on top of my other symptoms frightens me, but I have nobody to confide in right now. The old story of lonely in a crowd though I've no crowd.
It could be much worse - but I hope it gets better instead. If I believed in any sort of higher power now would be the time for me to beg...instead I'll listen to Massive Attack and let the tears stream down my face..."you could put your arms around her..." ("Protection")
I hope the pets photos bring smiles. "I'll stand in front of you and take the force of the blow - protection." Never forget that I mean it and it will always boil down to my final truth.
