Sunny Days & Quiet Nights
I've tried to not stress too much about Shana's leaving tomorrow and the lack of a replacement caregiver. Originally I gave her two weeks. She asked if less was okay based on a job offer she received in Los Angeles. I said yes. She then asked if I could give her more time. So when she told me yesterday (Wednesday) that she wanted to leave today (Thursday), a person can imagine my shock and fear. She then told me about Clarence (or "Big C") and we invited him over. I expected to see him more today as she is leaving very early tomorrow (Friday), but I've not seen either.
The pets have all been very affectionate and I've tried to sort myself out for the what if situation of having Shana leave and Big C not here. I'm scared as walking the dogs? Can't really do it. I guess I can use my cane to get to my car and get the wheelchair out and have them drag me around?
The pictures are from me hanging out on the back porch as the sun was going down. Of course Ein and Femme Pois joined me. They hear the screen door and Ein's immediately running with FP at her heels. Really adorable.
Shana just came in to let me know Clarence bailed on tonight. She's packing her car and cleaning up tonight so she can get in her car and take off as soon as she gets up. She told me she thinks I need to put an ad up after all. So my stress levels kicked my Addison's into gear. Hopefully this will not lead to me heading back into the hospital.
On that note, if anybody reading this knows a person who would like a part-time job in exchange for their rent and utilities and some food, loves animals and doesn't mind no meat, chicken or fish in the house (whatever they want outside of course is fine) due to my illness unable to handle it and my cookware/dishware being essentially kosher - I could use the introduction. The biggest chore is walking the dogs, feeding 'em, taking me to doctors...actually the link to the ad will be up soon.
I'm lucky my sweetlings love me so much because I'm about ready to give up. Seriously. Fighting my depression from this, my financial status after my medical bills, and my Addison's teaming up against my health with the Fibromyalgia and Myoclonus is not easy...so I'll find something to eat and watch "Mary Poppins."
